Another shitty day so far. You talk to me, if one can call that "talking," but I know you don't want to. I don't know what to do. I don't want to give up, I wanna talk to you, I don't wanna lose you. But I feel I'm just annoying you. You're such a good thing that happened to me, but for you I'm probably just another guy you met online and that in the end just wants to eat or date or whatever you think of me now after that thing I did. I just want you to be my friend and make me happy again like you used to.
Our friend invited me to spend the afternoon with you and him this tuesday. I really wanna go but that's up to you. That's your thing, and you guys seem so comfortable together. I answer that I want to go but only if you want me to. I hope you do. I wanna be with you, I wanna say I'm sorry looking you in the eyes.
Talk to me, explain what's going on, say something. I wanna know what's happening with you, with us. Damn, I hope that you never see this blog, too manny things I have not the courage to tell you. You wouldn't care anyway.
29/02/2016
28/02/2016
28
Today's February 28th, two months and ten days since we started talking. Dont ask me how I know.
Last friday we met for the second time. I was excited. Best thing that was gonna happen that day.
It was going good so far, until I did that stupid thing. Can't stop thinking about that since then. Plus you were bad or sad, because of me or for some other reason, maybe both. I don't know why, if it was because of what I did or not, but you talk less to me. I feel like you're different. Yesterday you didn't said you were going to sleep. I stayed awake all night, knowing you wouldn't say anything. I felt so depressed before knowing you. But when you appeared in my life, slowly all the loneliness went away, all demons disappeared. But now, I feel you so distant, and I'm starting to feel them close again, they are coming fast, like they never left.
Don't leave me. You are the best thing that happened to me in this past months, probably almost a year. I wish you knew how important you're to me, I wish I was as important to you as you are to me.
Last friday we met for the second time. I was excited. Best thing that was gonna happen that day.
It was going good so far, until I did that stupid thing. Can't stop thinking about that since then. Plus you were bad or sad, because of me or for some other reason, maybe both. I don't know why, if it was because of what I did or not, but you talk less to me. I feel like you're different. Yesterday you didn't said you were going to sleep. I stayed awake all night, knowing you wouldn't say anything. I felt so depressed before knowing you. But when you appeared in my life, slowly all the loneliness went away, all demons disappeared. But now, I feel you so distant, and I'm starting to feel them close again, they are coming fast, like they never left.
Don't leave me. You are the best thing that happened to me in this past months, probably almost a year. I wish you knew how important you're to me, I wish I was as important to you as you are to me.
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