The struggle is real. The struggle of trying to don't think about you otherwise my heart starts beating faster. I should stop trying to chat with you, I'm just taking up space in your life. But sometimes I only think about me so I just can't stop talking to you. Maybe Im just selfish, there are probably more "I" in this shit than "you." Obviously why. You are the one who doesn't care after all. And I'm the one worried about a less than three months friendship that didn't matter for you.
My ex blocked me again, what a surprise. She always finds a way to get away from me when we are good. Maybe in a couple months she and her bf get mad and she starts talking to me again. I don't really cara anymore, I used to. You helped me on that. You made me forget of her. The time that I usually tod about her I spent talking to you. Ironic that now you don't care about me and I spend most of the time thinking about you, isn't it? It's a never ending cycle.
We are almost in school break and I want to hang out with you, it didn't need to be just us, maybe some others friends. But, like always, you didn't answer my question and just change the matter. I guess that's your way of saying no, I don't know. How should I? We know each other for less that three months. How could I tod I meant something? Me? In the beggining we find out we had so much things in common, we were so close.
I feel you so much distante now.
