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So many weird stuff. Before everything, my "apathy" is back, I feel less. But yesterday you send me a message. You asked what was wrong with my friend, the other one that you hurted. You said he is all mad at you and he is being rude and aggressive or whatever, comparing him to me, because I'm not doing anything but not sending you messages. We talk a bit and then I asked if you wanted something more, you said no, I said bye. But then it happened. The tables turned. You asked me to stay, you asked me to not leave you. I was speechless. I was still mad, you didn't deserve that I stayed. But I'm weak as fuck so I stayed. But you suggested that I don't because you know the bitch you are. You know you are gonna hurt me. I'm gonna stay anyway, I don't have nothing better to do. Basically I'm dumb and stupid and I like you too much. That's one of the big problems in all this shit.

Anyway. Today (yeah today since its 1:15 a.m.) I'm gonna be with a girl that used to be a good friend. Until she felt in love with me and I kissed her (even though I didn't liked her back). Just proves how stupid I am. That was back in 2013. To be honest she is as stupid as me, or more. She forgave me and now we talk and gonna meet. She shouldn't have done that. I'm afraid I'm gonna hurt her again, I hope I don't. Damn, this must be what you are feeling. Small world indeed.